Oh ladeedumdum. I'm bored and I realized I have not blogged in AGGEESS. I miss writing. And ranting. Blah I think i need to talk too much till i reach a point where there's no one to talk to so i shall write to myself. It'll be as if I'm talking to myself. Right.? Yes? No? Oh dear, I'm nuts.
Currently contributing to the unemployment rate. I feel pretty much useless. lol. Everything and everyone is so heartbreaking these few days. You get hurt, and then you want to hurt. Grow up pls and treat ppl like they have feelings too cause they darn well do!
Actually I think I'm at a pretty good point in my life now cause well I'm jobless so i do not have to worry about the stress and pressure. Yea the only one thing that sucks is my love life. But then again when has it ever been perfect. lols. NONE of my relationships have been awesome. I know like some ppl say yay at least u have the memories or you noe its better to love than to have never but blah they don't know what was going on. What if I'd rather not have loved? What if now when I look back at my past relationships or crushes or flings, i realized that there was nothing to smile about but i only feel remorse?
Hmph. Maybe it is better to be single after all. Why am i so afraid of being alone? I think it's cause of the constant need of attention and love. lol. But it's not like i was getting that much when i was in a relationship anyways. Hah! I think it's just cause i feel like i need someone to fall back on when i got no one or nothing else, he will still be there for me, like how i will still be there for him. Sheesh.
I should totally date myself.
