♥ d r e a m e r b l u e z ` :)

Sunday, November 30, 2008Y

Tired of the tears...

And the petty things in between.....

The heartaches are a waste of time
Love is a waste of time
A waste of emotion
A waste of me

Tired of feeling unwanted

No I will never learn from my mistakes. Nor will i stop making them. The irony and the stupidity. I get it. I do want to stop. But i can't.

The time spent caring about the person. Loving the significant other. Worrying or being excited for and with the special someone. It's time well wasted. Fruitless.

Everything's just a waste of time..

2:32 AM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 2:32 AM
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Thursday, November 27, 2008Y

When emo,

....Blast your speakers

Zone out.......

`........Day dream

- s m i l e :) -

7:15 PM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 7:15 PM
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Wednesday, November 26, 2008Y

How

How do you stop yourself from falling in love?
How do you control yourself??
How do you forget someone so easily?
How do you play with fire and not get burnt?
How do you choose who to fall in love with?

I mean I know you can choose first n den fall but what if she isn't whom you want to fall in love with but u did, what would you do?
How do you get out of it?
How can u stop it?

How do you manage to control yourself?

How do you love someone and deny it?
How can you be with someone you don't love?
How can you love someone else with all your heart but be with someone else whom you don't love?

How do you be heartless?
How do you be "feelingless"?

Teach me..

11:07 PM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 11:07 PM
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Monday, November 24, 2008Y

LOL

Lol was fucking emo yesterday

But the tears have dried n I'm feeling better

Hmm what other updates have I to update. Oh yes..

I pulled out one problematic tooth of mine. So now I am one tooth short..

It feels so weird when i try to pronounce things. And i really do feel like i have a bloody big hole in my mouth. When i drink water, I can feel it leaking.

Hmpft.
I'm gonna go back on Thurs to letak balik!

Oh yes.. yesterday Ayryn and I woke up kinda late. at around 4. We bathed, and went to makan at the mamak. I ordered Nasi Goreng Kg kurang pedas, tambah ikan bilis. My food came with no ikan bilis at all, and pedas

.

So naturally i was complaining like nuts to Ayryn.. And she tried it and says it's not TOO pedas la.. Still can eat..

Then i replied, " But you know it's too early to..... * -pauses.. thinks quietly..- wait.. it's 4. early? No..nononono*

Ayryn, " Hahahah! You meant you can't eat such spicy food once u wwaakkee uupp?"

I: Mmm Hmmm...

Anyways was friggin blur the whole week. Hmm..

4:24 PM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 4:24 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

He is a player but at least he's not a liar.. :) thanks

3:16 AM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 3:16 AM
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Pull me out from this pool of tears
Save me from the heartaches

How shall i ever get over you
I thought you were the one
I thought this was it

-Boy, did i thought wrong.

Bleargh it's too early for me to emo. We're not even together. We're just two human beings who like each other. Well I do like him. I don't know bout him. Maybe he likes me and 50 other girls

.....Sighs

2:25 AM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 2:25 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

What do you think?

This is the sound of a broken heart beating -

2:12 AM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 2:12 AM
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Who am i to you? Do you care? Will you hurt me?

When I asked you to promise me, you could not.
When I asked you why, you said we cannot predict the future.

It's obvious you want the easy way out later on.

You will have your own argument.
You will point everything out. And said I did warn you about it

As if those words are just another hello, goodbye coming out from ur lips.

It's not about me anymore. It's about u. If you want me in ur life, you'll find a way to put me there, and keep me there.

They say love is giving him the power to destroy you but trusting him not to. But can i trust u?

Why hurt me? Why play with me? Please have some compassion. If you're playing just tell it to my face and not lead me on.

Just for the rush of the chase. Or just cause ur lonely.

If it's just temporary, tell me.

.......Please...

12:13 AM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 12:13 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Sunday, November 23, 2008Y

It gets harder during the night when you are all alone

10:42 PM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:42 PM
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Sighs` Feeling blue..

Falling for the wrong guy all over again
..

He's a player..
.

* Dear heart, I met a boy.. Prepare to be shattered....

I should not trust ppl so easily should I? But how would i know if it's the truth or not? What if I hurt him for the wrong reasons? Would i rather get hurt than let him get hurt?

What's wrong with me?

Why am I being so considerate. Naive.. Giving him the benefit of the doubt.. Nice? Reasonable? Fair?

Nah.. I'm starting to think I'm more likely to have been stupid rather than any of the above..

And how can they even think of playing around with LOVE? What's wrong with society.

For the thrill of the chase. The fun that comes out from it? Doesn't it get old? Don't you feel that at one point, your life seems so meaningless and empty and everything was just nothing? What is the end result of all the chase? The glory? No..

Don't you want sth that can last? For more than just a few months?

Sigh.. I'm tired

7:31 PM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 7:31 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Sighs

Chinese New Year is not serious

He doesn't want to be serious

He's just playing..
....

...

..

.

1:23 AM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 1:23 AM
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Wednesday, November 5, 2008Y

breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

8:18 PM

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 8:18 PM
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