Today was a boring dae s usual. But but but my tooth isint giving me much trouble now yay should be thankful for that.

Argh i still cant forget them. lols. Shud i just block them completely out from my life and carry on? Or continue this crazee useless going no where and a 0.01% chance of succeeding shinidigans.

When i thought gee maybe it would work out, they will always give a me this hugeass reality check smack into my face without fail saying we will not work out. Dat son of a bitch.

Why am i holding on. To the two guys whom i like and they like me too but we have zero percent chance to be with. Lmao. One of them has really good qualifications and there's a reallie good chance of being really successful in the future. While the other one is just really really nice to the girl he loves and yeahs it's really sweet. And he's not boring.

But both of them has their own downfall. One is really hard to understand. As in he's too ignorant n at times or arrogant; like he doesnt show that he cares or give a damn but he does ; just in his own style. He's not good at manja-ing Damn. But then again, he's also really smart and has this hugeass oh so bright future u need to wear shades tinted 100%. But he is getting forced to get married with his "gf" end of this yr when they both dun even want to! They don't even love love love each other anymore. Wtf. He was supposed to break up with his gf like 2 days before he found out he was to be forced to get married with her and get it going on with me!And he has a lot of health probs and his family is really traditional and he has this fetish of saving people's lives.

While the other one is just average and is always emo, but reallie sweet and caring i guess. But he's too caught up i his own world. Promising himself that he would love the girl and wait for her until the end of time even tho he knows that there is nada chances in getting on with her. Not being capable of loving another human. That's sad. N he cuddled with me! And kissed me! In my room! Wtf was that about then. And he doesnt know if he was just lonely or if he really does like me. But then again I was tipsy so damn me.

Both oh so wrong and problematic but then again, i like the thrill of excitement of fixing one person's life. Polish him up, wear him, walk all over him. A new pair of boots. Lols ok so maybe not so drastic. Maybe just fix him. Lols.

But I'm afraid this will be just another merry go round. The thrill of going after someone who isint responding to the way you want them to. Maybe i crave for them cause they're not giving in to me. And when they finally give in. I leave cause im bored and there's no challenge anymore.

Omg wtf Jess. Ur having a dilemma over two guys and you have a bf! That's not supposed to be right.

But then again, one will never be enuff.