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Sunday, September 30, 2007Y
dad's theory lol

my dad thinks my friends stole it. why? :

Me: i lost my money

Dad: how can u lose it? where did u put it?

Me: i put it in my purse. but it's lost. i don't know how also. i realised it when my purse suddenly so FLAT..

Dad: all your money gone?

Me: no. i have around 100 left.

Dad: i think you friends took it.

Me: cannot be la.

Dad: if it's a stranger, he/she would have taken all your cash. but if it's your friends, dey would have at least left some cash for u.

Me : O.O"

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haihz

i need someone to talk to. but i cant find anyone. so depressing. i hate myself

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blah

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

so random.. but suddenly feeling so emo after listening to this song. huhuhu


i still want my money back!! ='( haihz

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fucktard

i curse whoever that took my money to a deathly outrageous fugly painfull death tonight!!!! urrgghhhh then tomorrow i shall read the condolences section in the newspaper ='( DIE DIE DIE!!!!!! no money for rental d

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shit shit shit shit

i lost rm400!!! omffggg!!!!!

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Friday, September 28, 2007Y
eheks


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sigh


look away..

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Thursday, September 27, 2007Y
gimme gimme

i wan i wan


ooooo O.O

Type S!

.... damn


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bacckkk


Muahhx Roxy


haha back from 1u!! blueks din buy much. bought only a bracelet and oso multi purpose case from roxy. dere's 2 smalle case in a bigger transparent one so it's basically 3 for only around Rm90 so i guess it's quite worth it. Ate at italiannies. could not finish the food because we were too tired and yea the serving portion is huge even though there was 2 of us. Initially there was 3 but one backed out last minute. stupid.



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bla bla bla

woke up and i was ssiicccckkkkkkk. so i decided to skip class. *tee hee hee* besides i had marketing and it was my least fav sub. ok fine. so all the subjects are my least fav. hmm woke up by Renn at 11. And and and we're gonna go Old Town n then hmm go 1u........................
Ok fine i'm sick but i mean shopping makings me happy. so I'll be filled up with happy happy endorphins and as a result, you recover faster right?RIGHT? yea. thought u'd agree with me on this one =D

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read this


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chill


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mmmm



hmm it all lies in our eyes. look through me.

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hold on


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Wednesday, September 26, 2007Y
M&Ms Vs Skittles

Doreamon: omg even plain water looks so delicious

Suhaidi: y are you drinkin in front of us! i'm so hungry

Me: *drinks*

Suhaidi: I'm so hungry even your nails look like M&Ms

Me: I prefer them to be called skittles

Doreamon n Suhaidi: O.O

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mm hmm



lol he looks so serious

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argh

got back my econs paper today..got a C..i changed four answers and i dropped from a B to a C.. shitass.. econs suck. and so does the lecturer. hmpft!

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yawn

i cant sleep. yawn im sleepy but i cant sleep. not that i cant but i don't feel like it. but i need to. blah. feeling jaded. im schizophrenic. go figure. i think i'm gettin on everyone's nerves these few days. if i've done anything i'm sorry for, i'm willing to be forgiven =D . i hope everything turns out. I'm not sure how much longer i can take this.

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habits

Habit is habit and not to be flung out the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time.
-Mark Twain

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Tuesday, September 25, 2007Y
if onlyy

one minute and the earth begins to shake
two minutes and my heart begins to break
another minute and she makes me feel brand new
that's just three minutes with you
four minutes and she's got my on my knees
five minutes and she's got me beggin please
another minute and she's shows me something new
I need six minutes with you
six minutes

if only...i could have that effect on guys >.< =P

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unbelievable

i cleaned my room!! can u believe it?!no?! neither can i! wahahah

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sswweeetttt

Sometimes its black
Sometimes its white
Sometimes shes wrong
Sometimes im right
Sometimes we talk about it or we figure it out
But then she just changed her mind
Sometimes shes hot
Sometimes im cold
Sometimes my head wants to explode
But when i think about it im so in love with her

hehe i think most guys would agree to this =)


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tired

from walking all around town villa lol. my housemates and i walked to two of our friend's house because we were too full after stuffing ourselves with mooncake we decided we need to WALK. We went Eden's house and we pissed off his housemates i think cause they were doing assignments and nisha was ringing the doorbell like there was no tomorrow. Then this cute guy in white opened the door and asked us.."wrong hosue ijit.." In the end, each of us found three hot guys which each of us wants. I want black shirt, Nisha wants red shirt and Renn wants white shirt. Then on the way back we were comparing the guys

Renn: i like the white shirt one larh!!!

Me: black shirt!!!

Nisha: but the red one is super hot!!

Me: black shirt oso hawt wad!!

Renn: i like the white one laaa he got the serious serious kind of face

Me: that's cause he's angry =/

Then we walked to ayryn's house and den we came back to bitch more. XD

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Monday, September 24, 2007Y
disappointed

i thought everything was going to be ok and it would be like as if nothing has changed. i thought i would be happy again. i thought wow, it's not going to be so bad after all. i thought the ugly part was over. i thought the sun was coming out. i thought alot of things. i never thought i'd thought wrong. everything's suddenly coming bac. nightmare in the remaking. hopes which i've built came tumbling down in just a day. everything's smashing into me again. burying me. i want out.

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suffocated

i want to be able to breathe again. normally. relaxed.

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JESSICA!


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love?


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backk to cyberjayaa

im back in cyberjaya again!! i went to some lantern festival thingy at carpenter street back in kuching on saturday! there were so many ffooodddd sold and also performances. there was also this reallie mini mini fun fair rides and it was raining that day so they stopped the operation for a few hours until the rain stopped. When they started to test the engines and rides, a little boy and his father walked passed by and my friends and i overheard their short convo which was reallie hillarious if you were there at that time

boy: i want to sit on the rides!

dad: don't lah. not nice one

boy: but i want!

dad: it's still wet. later you get fried to death from being electrocuted.

boy: oh

will post pics i think asap

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Sunday, September 23, 2007Y
it's sunday ppl!!

im hoping it's truce day for my parents and i haha. might be goin out for dinner tonight o sth. i bought my vacuum!! yay portable mini vacuum so now i can vacuum places i cant reach before. but its not wireless. damn hmm goin back tomorrow. i don't wanna go back so soon! i miss homee ='( still the best place to bae XD
i love u grannyyy wahaha i wonder if she'll even read o understand this

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Saturday, September 22, 2007Y
hmm


hmm what do you see?

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i AM

in trouble!!

my parents got freaked out by my electricity bill. i had to pay rm100 cause i got astro and tv in my room while others don't have so they are paying 60 and 50

parents: you are so naive. so stupid. why are you letting people use you.

me: but i got astro :'(

parents: do you watch it everyday for the whole month? you switch it on non stop?!and even if you did that the electricity won't be that expensive! you got one air cond and one light. it's the same as everybody else! move back to kuching!

me: i don't want to study d larh!!!!!

parents: fine, you are getting 1k a month including rental

me: *speechless*

ggrrr my rental is edi 500! sum 41: cause im in too deep and i'm tryin to breathe up above in my head instead of going under...

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Friday, September 21, 2007Y
home!

kuching kuching kuching!!! miss miss misssssssssssss kuching a hell lot lols.. esp my famiwee!! wahahah home cooked food rawks. but it's quite boring here. lol no one to play wid me aww..

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silenced

i think i think i think
im still thinkin... im gonna be in deep trouble with my parents. so deep you wont be able to save me..

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Thursday, September 20, 2007Y
breaking down

i don't belong. i hate myself. i want to disappear. i don't want to be hurt anymore. i don't want to be let down over and over again just when i thought i was fitting in. But as the truth sets in, just swallow me up and spit me out but make sure you chew me up nicely. i wish i was braver and i could stand up on my own two feet. i wish u would understand me. it's not that hard. just take the initiative. i want everything to go away

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second last day of exams!

sat for my marketing paper.. n had comm theory n study skills quiz todae.. quiz was okay.. but the marketing exam was horrific..i was guessing thru nearly all the questions.. n my MCQ had so little "a's" for the answers so i tot this was a reallie bad sign for me. So then, all the MCQ questions which i had left blank, i filled em up wid "a's" im so paranoid ryte.. =D ......n now, i am regretting it.. >.<"

to him : i still miss u.

to the listeners : everything's fine

to my awakening : u'll get me thru this. u always did..

to myself : i want this to end




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Wednesday, September 19, 2007Y
don't wanna don't wanna no no no!

miraculously, im actually tryin to study for exams.. i have marketing exams tomorrow n i got a draft for comm study skills to pass up.. im so screwed. n i just went thru my whole course outline for my next 2 years n i got freaked out. the course was getting waayy harder *go figure* i mean like its time to do practical and all those professional ethical stuff etc etc etc..the whole thing just smacked me down n made me wanna cry. i realised in 2 years time i m gonna graduate n work. sth i still cannot see myself doing. im not ready for this. i don't wanna grow up. im afraid of failure. im afraid of gettin rejected and dejected.. esp right in my face =( i want to skip the whole bundle of obstacles and get on with the good life. im terrified right down to my very last bone.


blah..enuff of this.. i shall go try study my marketing =X







n mebbe get some food............................

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007Y
lalala

i got lego nails!!!!
hahahahaha i waxed renn's arms...cause she semi drenched me wid dirty water...mummy bitch... lol..
oh i got lego nails cause i coloured it wid colors that kinda look plastic n i love it wahahaha i have white blue n pink on my left hand..!!!!!


m too lazy to do the right one.... =/

hmm period came
i hate it when periods arrive in the middle of the month.. it makes me feel like it's ere so fast..hmm feel so stoic n blur n stoned .. i feel mellow too..argh wadever.. im gonna blame it all on my bloody best fren..literally.. bloody.. n i still miss him terribly..aww shucks this stinks..

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safe

Hold me close,
I wanna hear your heart calling for me,
Never let go,
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you.

My eternity, my sacred lover, my whole,
You tore my walls of safety down,
You built me up,
And thought me things i never thought I'd ever learn.

I want to walk the steps you walked,
I want to feel wad you've felt,
I want to fall down from the highest mountain,
Cause i know you'll be there to catch me wherever i fall,
And i'll be safe and sound, without a scratch,
And even if the world is falling apart,
I'll still feel safe in your arms,
As long as i'm with you.

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all wrong and lost

The blood has dried,
My heart is bruised,
Do what you wnt to me,
But please don't go

You're my drug,
My cure to my weakness,
You made me unafraid,
You made me fearless,
For the one i love has done the worst,
So why should i care anymore,
If you don't

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you never wanted to see me cry

You cut me into pieces,
You tore me up apart,
You made me lost and soulles,
You murdered my all,
And threw me into earth's core,
You watched me burn in the flyin flames,
And that's the day i died in your hands.

You hurt me one too many times till it's numb,
I hate myself for loving you,
But it's you and only you,
And until the day i die,
My heart's for you to torment,
Kick it, poke it, dig it,
Just don't leave,
And i promise I won't cry

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for eu

I wanna stand by you,
I wanna hold you through,
When the stars are grey,
When the sun does not shine,
I'll still be there for you.
I'll be your mountain,
I'll be your hiding place,
I'll be your comfort,
I'll be your everything,
Anything you want me to be.

I'll go through blades of knives,
I'll walk thru the depths of fire,
I'll cry out tears of blood,
Just to be there to hold you.
I won't stop till my one last breath,
I'll stay strong for us,
But even if i did died,
I'll still be somehwere near, watching over you.

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first post!

jjeesss iiisssss ffiiinnaaalllyyyy bbbllooogggiiinnnggggg wahahahahahah...feeling a little jaded these few days..over things that don't matter anymore..silly silly me..
had stats this morning.. shiat din understand a daymn thing he was teaching..n exams r coming up but too whacked out to do any studying.. yes ppl im lazy..anyway was so bored i started writting out random poems hahaha

:

Just another passerby,
A face u won't remember,
We've touched each other's heart to the core,
But only for just a second

A vast sea of people,
But who did we touch?
I'm starting to believe that,
fate will guide the way,
And bring me to my love

For i will find my one true love,
And all the best goes for u,
But if my fate is as cruel as you,
I doubt I'll ever turn out fine

I hate myself for loving you,
But i wont make any decisions,
Cause they say fate shud not be interfered,
But i was proven otherwise..

For the one i love has gone away,
And the love we had has faded away,
It drifted into another heart,
but certainly not mine,
While i break in two.

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