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Tuesday, October 9, 2007Y
moody me..

Could not sleep at all the whole night. Have not been sleepin well these past few days. Been so depressed and emo. I cried the whole night last night. cried myself to sleep. as usual. Mid sem break is coming soon. FINALLY! I want to go back. I need my serenity. I'm just afraid i don't want to come back to Kl once i step foot bac in Kuching.

There's been so much problems coming and going and staying. Sometimes i feel like i cant breathe in this house anymore. I'm not happy. I'm worried and afraid all the time. Now, this time, I was told that i never cleaned the house and i was lazy. And all i do know what to do is to make the house dirty. When i've been locking myself up in my room and all i have downstairs are just my drinks and my shuz. And i did clean the house. If i ate at home which was quite rare, i'd eat in my room. And i was told that my drinks and shuz made the whole house dirty. where my shoe rack is just beside a wall 5 to 7 feet from the door. I admit i do procrastinate but i still do get the job done.






a silent cry for help

a victim of the prejudice

the bias felt

the unfairness

the worries

and the love towards people

fuck being nice.

it's not worth it





"And as hard as they would try to hurt,
they made u cry, but u never cried to them,
just your soul"






All alone with no one to run to for comfort.

All i need is a knife or a gun.

I want it to end

Walk towards the water.

What do i have to lose.

Kick me down and trample on my heart

What do you care

Who am i to u





- At the mist and fogs of worries and sorrows,
it's hard to see past it all and find the light,
especially when all hope is gone,
and the mist is too thick. -







Bow my head and cry alone

Everything's lost

There's no where else to go.

Don't look at me

The tears mean nothing anymore

The pain lingers

While my wings burn.






*photoes from deviantart

2:37 PM Photobucket
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 2:37 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words